There was a reunion of the band in 2008. It was amazing. It was unexpected ... and as a stay-at-home mother of two little boys, and the wife of a travelling husband ... it was exactly what I needed. There were concerts, road trips, front row seats, meet and greet opportunities, and cruises - FIVE of them. I got to relive the entire super fan experience, but this time it was the way I wanted it - not under the constraints of my strict and budget conscious parents. But, like with anything I suppose, it had to come to an end.
I could sense it was coming. I was losing my feverish anticipation of tour announcements. I no longer spent hours, days, and weeks anxiously planning for upcoming NKOTB events. Over the summer, I spent a mortgage payment worth of money on concerts. I was looking forward to seeing other 'blockheads' that I'd formed friendships with over the years. And it was great. The concerts were spectacular as always. The meet and greets were over the top and everything I had ever dreamed of. But that was the beginning of the end ... I'd completed all of my bucket list items.
Then the cruise came. Again, excitement ... but not like before. I went, I saw, I enjoyed, I laughed a LOT. But one particular new kid made a comment, just one, directly to me, and it all became very clear. I'd already gotten what I needed out of this relationship. By continuing to indulge beyond this point was doing nothing but padding his ego and his bankbook, and his former displays of gratitude and thankfulness seemed to have disappeared in exchange for narcissism.
Please don't confuse my words as hatred or frustration for any members of the group. I've just reached the point of being fully satisfied and now have so much more in my own life now that is filling that previous gap. I will continue to enjoy the band, but it'll be different now.
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